I'm dead.

. . . . S T A T U S

Mood : =( 

"Life is not horrible but challenging! Think it that way!" said Liza. 

"/\___/\___/\/\/\/\____________" Certified dead.

I was rejuvenated when I heard that from Liza. However, a couple of hours, everything turned doom, doom, doom.. A piece of darkness.

I tried to be positive but something bad just landed on me again. I am feeling like a little criminal waiting for the death penalty. = ( Do you know how awful that feeling is? I really feel like hiding a side and cry when I met that incident just now.. Yet, I need to tell myself, come on, it's not the end of the world, you are 20 already. You think you are still 7 years old who can hide a side and cry when you face difficulty? NO-NO-NOOOO!

I felt like a criminal not because I did something wrong. I told myself,

"If I know I have done nothing wrong, there is nothing to fear about."

I kept on persuade myself with this statement.


I don't know what the issue is going to be this round. It's not the first time. I don't understand why it is always me. I just gotta be strong and say 'no' to whatever accuses they are trying to put on me. I really loathe this kind of pressure. It's really a very sickening feeling! I hate the feeling of waiting to die--! ='(

Justice exists.. 

Doesn't it? 

It will happen on me also. 

Right?

I can't wait for holidays. I want to leave here. I hate everything about here. ='(